The appointment was fine. Just talked.
I am starting a trip tomorrow. Off to the city and then Friday off on a cruise for Christmas & New Year. I am actually so anxious and scared out of my mind tonight. I have been crying and just had a massive nosebleed.
I talked it through with both wonderful psychologist and lovely psychiatrist and I am trying to break it down and only think of the next step rather than the whole thing but even the next step has me freaking out.
They seem so proud of me doing this on my own. People have been telling me how brave I am for doing it. I just want to curl up in a little ball. No actually, I want to turn around and go home.
I am so scared. I know that you can't get a holiday "wrong" but I am so worried about doing something wrong or being somewhere wrong. I am really not sure what I am doing. I really don't know what to expect or what to do.
My nose is starting to bleed again... :-(