Tired

I am so tired. 

I know they all keep telling me that I have to sleep. I do understand why. 

Therapy Pt 21

I cried, I cried a lot today during my appointment today. 

We talked some about yesterday. I talked about a lot of different things. 

Eighteenth Appointment

It was bad today. 

endings

Sometimes you can trace back to the end of something.

Sometimes it takes a while to sink in. When it does sink in it is like having a knife shoved in your heart.

It is worse that it is all my fault. If I had never said anything....

I never expected it would end.

shatter

It comes with

Seventeenth appointment

I am not really sure where to start.

We did a little bit of emdr yesterday, probably not enough though. I started talking about other things. They were related, sort of, but still feel that I should be focusing on the emdr. I suppose regardless of what it is that it is going to help long term.

Not a good day

Not a good day at all.

One more down

Well, four things down actually. 

I will post about my appointment with lovely psychiatrist yesterday soon, I have a post half written. 

Stop

Please make it stop.

Please can the physical memories stop today.