So just to be sure I went and saw my chemist today and got the morning after pill.
It was really difficult to talk to a male about it but I trust him and didn't want to talk with anyone else there.
I had a little teary moment in the room where he was talking with me. There was some questions he had to ask but also information he had to give me. It made me really nauseous and I have a dreadful headache. It cost me $20 but peace of mind.
No matter how desperately I want to have a child I don't want it to happen like that.
I did something really stupid today. In doing so I think I just took a giant leap backwards. Not just a step or two but a massive jump.
When I do something significant in my life I buy myself a special piece of jewellery. I have had my eye on something for quite some time, a beautiful ring. I was planning on it being my purchase at the end of emdr. However the thing with A this week was so significant for me that I decided that it would be my purchase. I had to go to my "run away" town to get it. They had to order it in, which after what happened next I should probably cancel.