I thought it might be time to try this again. There are some positive changes I think.
22 October 2014
Apparently today went well. Actually, I didn't feel that bad when I left today.
I cried a lot of the way home.
I really didn't have many flashbacks in the last week but had several on the way home.
I'm tired but my mind is racing.
I want to write but I don't want to. I want to draw but don't want to.
Kind of mixed up at the moment.
17 October 2014
9 October 2014
As I wrote previously I met with the psychologist who I have a memory of seeing when I was 16.
I took photos with me of that age. My face was familiar to her but she can't place it with a case. She asked me if she was familiar. I said sort of and then asked if she used to have red hair. She said yes, that she used to dye her hair a reddish colour.
8 October 2014
7 October 2014
I didn't want to leave the coast this morning. I did though. Nice drive down the coast, visited a gourmet food shop and then inland.
I saw the psychologist from when I was 16, will talk of that another time.
I checked into my hotel. I had room service dinner, 2 glasses of red wine and a 2 hour spa.
I have said it before, I don't relax easily but I feel so relaxed right now. I think I may even be able to get some good sleep tonight.
Good night (well it is for me) lovely readers.
3 October 2014
27 September 2014
25 September 2014
24 September 2014
Today was rather awful.
Lovely psychiatrist didn't really understand until today why that word it just so awful.
He didn't really understand a couple of things. I think both of those are sorted now.
He didn't realise that the way it was said meant it was a good thing. Well, a good thing for father not for me.
I don't want to talk about it right now. I plan to go and cry myself to sleep.